After few months past since I had my break before entering uni life, just now one thought crossed my mind.
what am I doing with my life? am I living it the way I want it to be?Yes, these past few months, it was kind of blurry actually. Instead of filling my free time with useful things, I just munch on food and bought pretty much non-essential stuffs online. Well, I did go for a short getaway with my friends and do other things too such as volunteering and fasting. But then again, to think about it, I have not meet up with one of my special friends, the one and only special friend though lol
How funny isn't it? To be in the same state yet still not meet with each other, because apparently I am always 'vehicle unavailable' to go to the city. (Note that I live in the countryside or whatever you call it) oh and yes this post is about her since I suddenly remembered of her, i mean our memories yeah silly me
I did chat with her last week. I am planning to give her birthday present (i am 2 presents left behind) before I go into uni mood/life. I do not know what to give to her since she gave me a HUGE white cute teddy bear for my birthday last year and I guess it is expensive. I bet it is. And in order to thank her, (plus, i got the teddy bear as an early birthday present) i need to give something expensive too. If I don't then I am not a good friend because I only give her shabby presents since we know each other back in 2011. And, also the reason why I have not give her anything yet up till now ugh i hate myself
I promised her I will treat her to Seoul Garden but I still cannot fulfill that wish yet. Wut am I doin?
these few years, we have gone through a lot of ups and downs, and we were not always there for each other, plus we are not living in the same university or college that adds up to the tension. It is not the bond that we had back then in 2011/2012 when we webcam each other at midnight (i still find myself lol at the thought of that) it is different now. i guess we are growing apart and the fact that I no longer have the same interest as her (ref: infinite) does not help much either. I don't know how to fix this gap between us, or maybe I am the only one who think there is a gap because I can be silly at times. silly, that's what she always call me, she also calls me Cucurbita Pepo/pumpkin idk why lol. god i miss her very much and i want to meet her and hug her for a long time and surprise her
let's just hope I can at least give her the birthday presents she deserve
hugs and kisses from far,
silly me
p/s: and some beautiful flowers from tumblr, just like you :)
